Highway to Hell

All I can think of is “Highway to Hell”. I am heading out this evening to meet my ex husband to pick up our youngest son for a weekend visit. See, Hitler has done everything he can think of to keep me from seeing my son. Now, keep in mind, I have custody. I am allowing my son to live with his dad in order to try a new school. The school here in our little town is not all that great and my son had some incidents that happened last year and he is refusing to go back to school here. I am taking my oldest son who is 19 with me and Hitler and I will trade kids for the weekend. To make this trip a bit more interesting, I am taking my Dad with me. Yes, the one who just turned 70. He doesn’t remember that he is 70 and wants to go with me in case Hitler tries to be a butt again. I am just hoping the Highway to Hell will smooth out this evening and that the switch will go well so I can come back to the beautiful mountains here in WV.
This week has already been stressful enough here at home. I could really use a stress free weekend right now.
I am also looking forward to a party that Susan, Belle and I will be attending this weekend. Gotta love the passion parties…….
Have a good weekend, everyone.

Daddy's Girl

Can you believe that at my age I am STILL Daddy's girl. My Mr. Wonderful, that I have been dating for a little over 6 months now, asked me last night if I ever thought he could even come close to being as wonderful as I thought my Dad is. I smiled and told him that he could sure try, but I am pretty sure that he will have to settle for being wonderful in a whole different way than my Daddy. :)
I guess with Dad's birthday coming up this weekend it has me in a melancholy mood. I know I am VERY lucky to still have my parents and to have them both be healthy. I am thankful for that. I am not saying my Dad is perfect, trust me. He is male, after all. But in all honesty, he is everything a daughter could want in a Dad.
To all of you out there who still have your Dads....hug their necks and enjoy them.

My Dad

This weekend my Dad will be 70 years old. It is just so hard for me accept that my Dad will be 70. I have been thinking a lot the past few days about my Dad. Trust me, he isn’t perfect, but I have to admit he has been a great dad. He has told both my sister and I that he doesn’t want a gift for his birthday this year. I have been working on a letter to give him letting him know how much I appreciate all the things he has done. It has made me a little weepy the past few days. I can’t imagine life without either of my parents. I depend on them for so much.
Any ideas on anything else I can do for my Dad’s birthday to let him know how much I appreciate and love him?

I hate roller coasters!

So, I have always gotten sick on roller coasters, but this is ridiculous. The Ex husband told me he would meet me halfway so that I could have my son for the weekend. First let me explain, I have custody of my son, however, he hates the school here. He really wanted to go to NC to try school there. I finally agreed to it and his Dad said he would work with me and bring him halfway for visits. Now, he says he won’t. I have to go to NC to get him, about 3.5 hours from here and then turn around and take him back on Sunday. For someone who has back problems, this is a lot of traveling, something I am only to do if I am riding and can take meds to keep me relaxed. Well, that won’t happen, I have to drive to get him and drive to take him back. I am very angry, hurt, sad, all of that good stuff. I just want to see my son. First his dad says he will meet me, then he won’t, then he will….then about 15 minutes ago, he says he won’t. His Dad, who I like to call Hitler, is only doing this because he owed me 5500.00 in back support and the state has started taking payments out of his checks. Now he is mad at me. He was supposed to have started making payments two years ago and didn’t. Now he is mad at me. This seems a little screwed up to me. I think it might be a lifetime movie weekend. Gonna go buy me some popcorn and diet coke and get new batteries for the remote and stay in bed as much as possible. Thinking about inviting a couple of friends over to hang out too. Maybe we can even contact the mafia and see about a hit man? LOL

I'm forever Yours, Faithfully

Doesn't it make you wonder why the one you want to be there forever is usually the one who leaves and the one you want to leave is the one that wants to stay forever?
Obviously, being sick yesterday and having to stay home gave me way toooo much time to think. I am back up on my feet today physically, however, emotionally, my brain is buzzing. I have been seeing someone for 6 months, and I will admit, I am crazy about him and he seems pretty crazy about me. I am just so afraid something will happen to ruin the whole thing. I guess all of the failures in my past have me afraid to trust what is going on right now.
I need to forget the things from the past and live in the now. I second guess myself now all the time. What happened to that carefree girl from years past? I gotta get out of this funk.
What is going on out there with everyone else? Anything good?

Confused

Last night was a rough night. I have been going thru some pretty tough times with a couple of people and last night, I decided to get it all out and settle things once and for all. Why is it that I am still hurting? I told one guy that I could never be more than his friend because even though my best friend and I have had a rough time, I still can’t date her ex. He said it makes him sad. Now THAT makes me sad. Why do I ALWAYS attract the guys that seem so sweet like last night, but are really very physical guys that want to shove you around? I have a GREAT guy that I have been seeing for a while. Why can’t I just settle down and be happy with him. He is handsome, he is kind, has a great job, is a great dad and seems to be everything I have ever wanted. I think after the failed marriages, I am afraid to totally commit. Who knows. Maybe just “talking “ it all out on here will help. The good news….2 people who have owed me $$ since May came thru today….I can buy groceries!!!! LOL
As for the weekend, plans with Mr. Wonderful tonight, not really sure about the rest of the week….anyone doing anything fun this weekend?

Music of Life

I think I have finally come back to work after the weekend. I guess work does that to you after a couple of days. I did however, have a slight funny happen last night. I have a piano in my home and I love to play. I teach a handful of kids on a couple of evenings after I get off work. ANYWAY, after lessons last night, I decided that since I was the only one in the house, I would play just for fun. I was enjoying the relaxing music I was playing and was in my own little happy place. I had just finished a song when I hear clapping, yes, clapping. I look up and there is a little old man, who seemed quite inebriated at the time, clapping and grinning from ear to ear. Scared me to death. Wonder if he continued to clap after I slammed the door shut?
Hope everyone else is doing ok. Should be another fun filled day of work, lessons, and playing for a church tonight. Everyone enjoy the music in their lives today.